Life right now

Hey Everyone,


Once again it has been a while and I apologize. There is not much to tell you about doctors stuff, still waiting. I recently went to the doctor for kind of a check up for when they thought I had an ovarian cyst burst. My doctor is awesome and has tried to get me in for an ultra sound in 2 months. Some days it gets harder and harder to believe that I will ever get to be completely normal again as selfish as that sounds. I know I have gotten way better than I was and do not have it that bad, I just want to live life how I was before, sports included. Not to mention be confident in myself again. 


I am not writing this to have a pitty party, but it is a lot easier to say how I feel on here then in person. I hope my honesty shows that everything is not roses and sunshine after going through an experience like this, and that I will not choose to hide the difficulties. Yes, God is working in my life for sure through this. Is it always easy ? Definitely not.


It is just now as summer approaches I'm applying for jobs and feel limited as to what I can do. I can't do the typical college girl thing and be a waitress since my arm is too shaky, I can't do any labor such as landscaping because it will up my blood pressure, I can't go back to my job at the waterslides as a poolside attendant, which I loved since helping kids down slides and other physical things are needed to work there. Now I know that there are plenty of other jobs I could do, but I just feel so limited, and it's frustrating. 


My appearance has also been really bothering me. OF COURSE I have awesome support and people constantly reminding me that I look fine and that I am beautiful, but I think we can all agree, we have to feel those things for the effect of people telling us them can fully take place. 


I started the Atkins diet with my mom about a week ago and have lost 6.5 lbs so little victories are definitely helping me to keep going. Plus, not having to do it alone has been such a great help! I have 13.5 lbs to go, and will definitely be keeping my eyes on the prize lol cheesy ! 


Thank you all so much for your continued support and IF YOU KNOW OF ANYONE HIRING OR WILLING TO HIRE let me know !! Thank you !! God Bless! 




Prayer Requests:
- Strength for my family and I when things get frustrating with waiting
- Patience
-That God would supply a job opportunity for me
- For others that are going through tough times






For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Jeremiah 29:11