Boop Bop a Loo Bop

So the past week has been really really tough. I have had persistently bad headaches and it's making it really hard to focus when I am doing homework and writing tests. It is not easy for me to admit failure, but I failed a test this week and it made my confidence go down majorly. I'm not used to getting bad grades and this one hit me really hard. Also, I am now on day three of my diet and that has also been really hard. I always feel hungry and I think its only because I know I can't have certain foods, not because I am hungry. Luckily, I have my second mom to keep me on track and her support which helps a LOT! <3 I have still not heard from the new doctors office and my old doctor is checking if they can use my old CT Angiogram which would be awesome and speed up the process. 
I ask for prayer for:
- Confidence in my ability to still do well in classes
- Confidence in my diet
-And continued prayer for friends who are struggling with illness and other struggles

Prayers 4 Patience

Hey Guys,
So today my mom and dad decided that since we aren't getting any response from the new doctors office, that we would drive down there and get the file that they need from my old doctor (Dr. Heran) and take it to the new office ourselves. We then found out that there has been lots of phone tag going on between the two and the new office keeps sending my referral back to Dr. Heran's office. So now to get the ball rolling Dr. Heran's office is sending me for an angiogram CT scan which I was hoping I wouldn't need since I just got that done about two months ago. I have come to be very frustrated about this since Dr. Lee won't even see me until that scan is done and it could take 3 weeks to who knows how long before I get an appointment to do that and who knows if I'll get bumped again. After this is done, my case will go before the panel and they will then decide how urgent my radiation is and when it will happen. This could also take time and I am starting to realize that what I thought was it all falling together with school and such, is now falling slowly apart. Well maybe not apart but definitely challenging some of my plans for my future.
 I am accepted into a program that I would take all of January and through the summer so that come Sept. I would be able to work on having a solid job to work my way up in and prepare myself for possibly getting married soon. Now if my radiation is pushed back, I might not be able to get it until January or February and this would most likely prevent me from going to school next semester. I also realize that if I DO get married in the next two years, I don't really know the odds of me being able to leave the country for my honeymoon for insurance purposes. So many things get in the way and I feel like somedays I can work my butt off for my goals and there will be that barrier holding me back until it is fully dealt with. But I know that God is capable of everything so I try not to ever lose focus on the plans that He has in store.
I'm asking for prayer for:
- Calmness in this stressful time so I can focus on school
- Healing for anything since God can do miracles
- Continued prayer for people I'm in contact with that have illness as well




Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Day One: Struggles

So today is day one of my eating healthy. There has been MANY rough days with my physical appearance and feeling too fat and unattractive. I appreciate the support of the people around me to tell me I am pretty and beautiful but I have now discovered its an inward battle and I must feel it before I can believe those things. So lately I have been eating lots of fruit and veggies, no junk food allowed, and I must watch how many calories I am supposed to consumed. I must say, one of my major accomplishments yesterday was that I was able to work out with my teammates again. This seemed like such a minor thing but I went home and just thanked God for giving me something I love so much back. It made me cry. Now by working out I don't mean anything too intense, but I was able to walk on the treadmill for an hour while my teammates worked with our personal trainer. Right when I am feeling at a low, God gives me something to remind me that He is in control of my life. Yes, I do definitely have my hard days where I struggle with my appearance but I don't want to keep this a secret. I don't want to hide it since I KNOW I'm not alone in this. But here are some verses that have helped me :) 
1 Peter 3:3-4 
“Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty that depends on fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.” (NLT)
Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” (NLT)

Oct. 19th, 2011

Hey Everyone,

Yesterday I went for a doctors appointment in Vancouver with Dr.Heran. He was able to answer a lot of my questions which was such a blessing. Lately as my team starts playing games for basketball, the reality has really set in that I can't play or work out and there has been a few rough days. Although, the girls on my team this year are fantastic and once again God blessed me. Anyway back to the appointment. My doctor made me extremely happy with the news that I can now do yoga and I am so thankful that there is SOME form of working out that I can do. He also seemed very happy that I have not had an episode (emergancy hospital visit). Then he told me that he will no longer my doctor and that I will be passed on to Dr. Lee, a radiologist, at the cancer agency. His  best guess said that I will not have to be put under for the radiation so I am excited that means NO NEEDLES!!! YAY! God is good! My  file is now passed onto that new doctor and he has requested an angiogram CT scan which I hope I don't need since that WOULD mean needles. After he reviews my file it goes before a pannel of doctors and they decide all the things I will need.  Then I will find out my date of radiation.

I do have a few prayer requests as well:

- That the doctors will get it done soon

- That I will get it over with so I can focus on school

- For some other people who I am talking with who are struggling with serious illness as well 

Thanks!!!

Kim

August 17th, 2011

hey guys,

So I am just asking for prayer about my surgery. It got postponed until possibly next tuesday if they can fit me in. The problem is, is that if I dont get it soon enough I cant move to abbotsford and start school. It is a big stress in my life right  now and it would be awesome if you could all pray and ask God to just work in all this.

Thanks!!

Kim xo

July 21st, 2011

Hey Guys,

So since last time I wrote things have been pretty good. Still get tired quite easily but havent really had headaches or anything. But the hardest part is feeling normal but not being able to do things that are normal for me like play basketball with my team and do summer watersports, but I cant complain, God has been faithful and always will be. I have a consult next Friday for anistetic stuff and blood work which I am nervous for since the needles but nothing like all the needles I had to get in the hospital so once again, cant complain. Then they have my procedure booked for Aug16th, which is awesome as my family camping trip is the first week of Aug so I get to go,and i am hoping to move in with two friends in abby for school on the first of Sept. What else to say besides this all happened for a reason and I KNOW God has been faithful and will continue to be and I need to put all my trust in Him and know he calmed the waters so why not my fears too ;) 

I am asking for continued prayer for my family and friends for fears to be stilled and for mine as well. Also that I will recover fast this time so I can continue schooling and move on with life.

THANKS LOVE YOU ALL!Kim xoxo 

(PS If anyone has questions feel free to comment or msg me!)

June 29th, 2011

I will have to have another angiogram after all but the doctors will not know whether I will need the embolizition until the angiogram is done. They will immediately do the embolization while I am under at that time. Still praying I won't need it but the doctor said I most likely will. If they are not able to do it they will do radiation.This will be done the second week in August. Thank you again for your prayers! We truly do feel them!! ♥

June 12th, 2011

Hey Guys,

I'm so happy to be home!!! You really start to appreciate the little things when you have been stuck in a hospital for 18 days. I have been so greatful for the visitors and the prayers so thank you all so much! I still have tingling in my right side, which is slowly getting better. Right now I am just asking for prayer that after my check up at the end of this month that i wont need another procedure to get rid of the 5% that they left. There is a chance that it will die off, but I am really hoping i dont have to be in the post operatrion room again because it was awful last time. But once again thank you all for the prayers, texts, facebook messages and wall posts, flowers cards and stuffies =) they all mean a lot!

Love you all!!

Kim

June 3rd, 2011

Hey Everyone,

Since i figure I got home I thought I would maybe write a little note and let everyone know what happened in the shortest form possible for now until i get inpired to write a book about it lol. So about three weeks ago I experienced a really bad headache while driving to Linden (my bf's) after church. The doctors think that is when my AVM started to leak. I found out that i was born with it and at three in the morning the blood from my AVM hit my spinal fluid and thats what i dont remember. I went into my parents room and then i guess i basically passed out and my parents called the ambulance which took me to Chilliwack no lights or sirens, kinda mad lol and once i was there they kinda of took their time. Finally they rushed me to Royal Columbia Hospital. I had to be bounced around from room to room lots and met lots of people and had to wait for the procedure which happened and my brain didnt like it too much, so they had to but a subclavian line in my neck to monitor everything, which i wasnt complaining about since it meant less needles and pokes. Finally they took that out and sent me home. 18 days later! I still dont have complete control or feelings in my right side but it its gonna take some rehab. Thats the EXTREMELY condensed version wiith less needles, sleepless nights but amazing God moments, but at least its a little more then you knew before. Thanks for the prayers and messages and texts etc! They mean a lot!!! 

Kim